Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts

Sunday, September 20, 2009

successful saturday

Friday night, I stayed home, did some cooking, tidy-up the house, and watched The Bodyguard. All alone. I was a bit uneasy being home alone due to the crazy things that has been going on in my neighborhood. Even though I was on high alert for anything that seemed out of the ordinary, my evening spent alone was nice. It's been awhile since I was able to spend Friday nights at home and alone. Saturday morning, I woke up bright and early, did my morning jog. Got home, had some breakfast, shook my brother awake with my foot, called Richard, and got ready for the Ocean Conservancy Lake Clean Up, which I had volunteered for 2 weeks ago. From 9am to 12pm, we picked up other people's trash at Lake Berryessa. It's amazing what we found. The usual trash items were beer bottles and cans, and also broken beer bottles. Although, the most common trash I found littered around the lake were feminine products, i.e. pads, tampons (and lots of it), and panty liners. I'm not kidding. How gross is that? Why would anyone do such an unsanitary thing? Of course, changing your tampons behind some bushes is fine, but at least take the trash with you! How hard is it to place the applicator back into the wrapper and place that in another trash bag and take it with you? I honestly don't get people who just throw their trashes everywhere. Good grief. Some volunteers claimed they found shells from shot guns and rifles. hmm... After we picked up trash, we waited around for the others so we can do a 30 minute drive to where the barbecue was held for volunteers. While we waited, we decided to take some pictures.

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philnrich sunnme Richard and I decide who can make the best sounds on my hungry belly while we waited for the others to show up. Photobucket Photobucket Hot day at Lake Berryessa Lake Berryessa I didn't take many pictures since I was more focused on trash pick up, eating, and enjoying the water. Photobucket Photobucket
When we came back from our dip, we were the last ones there. Everyone packed up the food and left. No goodbyes. =(
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Top, left to right: Ryo (Japanese exchange student), Jack (UCD Ph. D), and Ken (ex football player) Middle: John (Jasmine's right hand man on issues) and Jasmine (President of ESO) Bottom: Richard and Sunny (my lazy sleeping brothers)

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Unhappy closure in the Annie Le case

Feelings of wretched disappointment washed over me this morning when I read the major headline on CNN. I felt my belly do a 360 flip and my heart stopped beating for a mere second. I'm aware that violence happens everywhere but what I did not know is can individuals be immune to such violence? I've spent my childhood in the most dangerous, poverty-stricken areas of Los Angeles where I was exposed to hate crimes, gang violence, random attacks, and even child molestation and rape on a day-by-day basis. I know that violence is something that I am unable to escape, no matter where I reside now, despite my residential history, I just assumed that I have become used to the fact that violence happens. Apparently, I have been contradicting myself for years and today I'm now facing that truth. I've been following the Annie Le case ever since she was reported missing with the highest of highest hope that she was kidnapped for ransom and would later be found alive and well but with scrapes, bruises, or maybe some broken joints (this is reality folks, I doubt kidnapped victims are ever found unscathed) - but alive is what I was aiming for. There's a heavy air over me and I can't seem to shake it off. Headlines of child brides deceased after giving birth, homeless and pregnant foster girls thrown out of foster care, the disgusting DuGard case that reminds of the Fritzl guy in Austria case, are swirling around me. I feel so helpless and hopeless. I'm just ranting again. I know there are many like myself out there who had huge hopes that she would be found alive, rather than the way she was found.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Once in awhile, you'll have one of those days...

If you're connected with me on facebook, then you might know about my terrible day. I'm exhausted. All I want to do is crawl into the king size bed and lay next to something warm, furry, and purring while I drift off to sleep.
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Monday, June 1, 2009

Ahem...

These are from last Friday's news. Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger is proposing to further cut school funding by $680 million and eliminate in-home care services for the majority of current recipients, his Department of Finance announced today. Source: http://www.sacbee.com/topstories/story/1902345.html The governor was in Livermore this morning dedicating the "world's largest, highest-energy laser system," right around the time his Department of Finance was announcing $3 billion more in state spending cuts, including less money for schools and adult daycare. Source: http://www.sacbee.com/static/weblogs/capitolalertlatest/022671.html o_O

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

lacking some updates

School has stripped me of all my time and money. In two weeks, I have finals and I still owe another few grand to the UC system for this upcoming Spring 2009 Quarter. School has gotten too expensive. My cousin's new girlfriend told me that when she attended the same school 4 years ago, the tuition was $1,500 full time. It's currently now $2,990 full time. Grants and FA are helping just a little. I'm talking about this because the state can no longer assist UC, CSU, and CCC financially. All is not well in the state of California (I guess you can say that about anywhere). There are a few things I have in mind to blog about but that'll be for later since I have papers and finals in two weeks that I need to prepare for. I hope that all is well in the blogging world!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Scary Business

Darrell Steinberg is on CNN right now defending his choices and suggestions on how he rules over the Legislature. California has always had problems with finding the right people with the right kind of leadership. Our buget deficit is scary business. I'm more worried about education right now. Last year, the government pays 70% of our tuition while we paid the 30%. If there's no money left for us, that 70% could go lower forcing students to shell out more. Scary thought during this time.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Historic day in the making

Election. I'm quite burnt out from all the presidential news. I only care about the propositions in California. I'm glad I got out of work early yesterday to vote so that made things easier for me today. Remember, vote for what matters! I didn't vote for neither the Rep or Dem candidate, so don't ask me. It's depressing that some of the people I talked to in class this morning weren't aware of the other candidates in other parties. One guy's reaction was "There's a Green Party?!" Horrible, ain't it? Happy Voting Day! ...i miss my grandma in indiana. =(

Monday, October 6, 2008

Lehman Brothers Crisis

Richard Fuld, you are a prick! Can you honestly bs your way out of this in front of the house of committee?? for christ sakes!!! you deserve that nickname, Dick. i'm fuming with anger! >_< *there was a picture of him here, but i took it down* this is unbelievable... is anyone else watching him testify in front of the house of committee? Can you believe how he spends his money? He makes Doolittle look like a saint. >=( **Edit I'm starting to feel bad for for Dick... The the House oversight and gov't reform committee are really brutal in asking him questions and reminding him that he's testifying under oath. Why must I feel bad for criminals?? ok.. criminals is a bit harsh of a word to use. I'll call him by his real name, Dick. Goodness, they sure are grilling him!

Monday, September 29, 2008

Depression

You've seen that commercial. The ones where they say "Depression hurts... blah blah blah" That quote has been stuck on my mind a lot. I'm depressed about a lot of things. The economy is heading in a scary direction, I've been broke ever since I've paid my tuition and books, I lost my best friend, and I'm busy as hell! This is too much for me to deal with. I wish it were 2007 when everything was peaceful and I didn't have this stupid accent. >_<